yellowtangerine
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i actually hate to make whiny and ranting posts online, but i just needed to share this now cause i really like you guys and i feel i can tell you. yeah we have total dramaz in our home. all because our dad is hardly ever home during weekends and he refuses to tell us where he goes etc. so eventually mom got sick, they argue blahblah the usual cause she thinks he's cheating on her, which he probably is although he refuses (i dunno what to think anymore) but lately things have just gone totally whack. a few weeks ago my mom was dramaqueening, claming that she od on some pills, although she didn't, and she made her brother-in-law worried with telling him and stuffs. and today, wow it was seriously hysterical.
we were about to go to my uncle's bday-dinner thingie, and ofcourse mom refused cause dad was going and so we decided to leave her home. she threw a tantrum cause then suddenly she wanted to give away their really good cognac (my uncles turning 40) and if my dad didnt give him it, she'd throw it out and crush it etc. also, if he DID give it to him, she said she'd call his brother and tell him what a s.o.b of a brother he had etc etc. (god knows why cause he already knows) and from there things just went even more downhill. she said she was gonna wreck the whole house (that there'd be no house when we got back) while we were gone and my sister got angry and said in a burst of rage that if she destroyed the house, she'd stab my mom (ya know those things ppl say when they're angry, but of course dont mean it) - and then mom goes and gets two huuuge knives and throws it to our feet and goes intro hysterics, telling us to stab her and she forces the knives into my dads hands and tries to stab herself, so i just had to lunge myself at her and pull her away and so my sis helped me and in all this, she scratched my moms neck and my mom almost slapped her, but stopped..but yelled something, i dunno cause for a moment everything was just a blur. i just leaned on the wall and said that this was making me crazy and then i dunno what happened, cause something just took over and i screamed at the top of my lungs that they should stop and that this was insane etc, and that i was so sick of this drama. it was so scary cause i wasn't like blacking out, but i was so angry i had no control until i just collapsed in my sisters arms, crying. so they stopped and my mom was like shouting at me that now I would know how she felt. and then she went to her room. as if she was the only one who had ever felt bad from all this drama. so we didnt go of course, and my dad actually comforted me, which he hasn't done in years i guess.
i'm just so sick of all this and i wish i could just take my cats and leave the country and everything behind me. my mom thinks i'm siding with dad, which is wrong cause i dont. it's just that he doesnt throw tantrums and do stuff to hurt us just to get to her. she does hurtful things to us so he will feel guilty. and a few hours after this drama, she sent me a textmessage saying she would leave and be gone tomorrow forever or something. i told her that i could never hate my parents no matter what and blablalba, but i never got any answer. and frankly, if she wants to leave, fine.
i dont want to live here anymore. i'm tired of being nothing but poor white trash
we were about to go to my uncle's bday-dinner thingie, and ofcourse mom refused cause dad was going and so we decided to leave her home. she threw a tantrum cause then suddenly she wanted to give away their really good cognac (my uncles turning 40) and if my dad didnt give him it, she'd throw it out and crush it etc. also, if he DID give it to him, she said she'd call his brother and tell him what a s.o.b of a brother he had etc etc. (god knows why cause he already knows) and from there things just went even more downhill. she said she was gonna wreck the whole house (that there'd be no house when we got back) while we were gone and my sister got angry and said in a burst of rage that if she destroyed the house, she'd stab my mom (ya know those things ppl say when they're angry, but of course dont mean it) - and then mom goes and gets two huuuge knives and throws it to our feet and goes intro hysterics, telling us to stab her and she forces the knives into my dads hands and tries to stab herself, so i just had to lunge myself at her and pull her away and so my sis helped me and in all this, she scratched my moms neck and my mom almost slapped her, but stopped..but yelled something, i dunno cause for a moment everything was just a blur. i just leaned on the wall and said that this was making me crazy and then i dunno what happened, cause something just took over and i screamed at the top of my lungs that they should stop and that this was insane etc, and that i was so sick of this drama. it was so scary cause i wasn't like blacking out, but i was so angry i had no control until i just collapsed in my sisters arms, crying. so they stopped and my mom was like shouting at me that now I would know how she felt. and then she went to her room. as if she was the only one who had ever felt bad from all this drama. so we didnt go of course, and my dad actually comforted me, which he hasn't done in years i guess.
i'm just so sick of all this and i wish i could just take my cats and leave the country and everything behind me. my mom thinks i'm siding with dad, which is wrong cause i dont. it's just that he doesnt throw tantrums and do stuff to hurt us just to get to her. she does hurtful things to us so he will feel guilty. and a few hours after this drama, she sent me a textmessage saying she would leave and be gone tomorrow forever or something. i told her that i could never hate my parents no matter what and blablalba, but i never got any answer. and frankly, if she wants to leave, fine.
i dont want to live here anymore. i'm tired of being nothing but poor white trash
