You're not going to like the answer Ray,
I've never seen god with my eyes, I grew up in a Christian family that constantly read the bible, but never "forced or pushed" it upon me.
I have some neighbors that are severely christian, and by that I mean...quoting the bible for every single thing good happening, and of course...the devil or demons every-time something goes wrong, I got really tired of these people, so I rarely visit them anymore, they don't quite get "why".
Once, they felt lonely and asked me - why doesn't anyone visit them? Are people too busy with life? Are we pest? Are we cholera? Why and why?
I answered them that I thought they where nice people, maaaaaaaybe tune down on the 24-hours-bible-babble talk once in a moonlight from time to time. The retaliation was quite aggressive, something about me not coming from a true christian family etc. etc. and you can never get too much of the bible and the word of god etc.
These kind of people, however friendly they may be, sort of put me off a bit, because in my world...it's perfectly okay to have a belief, just as long as you stay cool...you know - both feet firmly planted on planet-earth.
To ask someone if they believe in god or not, is a very provocative question, it's highly personal at best, it seems so simple to just ask for a YES / NO - answer, but it's never as simple as that, especially for a thinking mind, not some mind that has been hypnotized by a book that is several thousands of years old and lots of people claiming to have seen Jesus, God or whatnot.
I'm a scientist at heart, I believe in hard cold facts, but being a hobby-scientist...amateur scientist at best, it is in my nature to always seek out knowledge and find out, take notes, experiment and such, therefor I cannot conclusively say I don't believe either, in fact - how is it even scientifically possible at all?
If you look at it from a cold scientific point of view, and if you have at all read the bible, or understand what Christians think of God - then you'll already know that they always blame him for every good thing, and every bad thing on the Devil.
And if you look at human nature, you KNOW what they are quite capable of, murder, deception, child abuse, thievery, power abuse, love, hate, and any crime & sin you can think of, most of them (that I know of) readily lie about that in order to make it possible to survive the day as they themselves say.
How can a merciful God watch and overlook the thousands of children being abused every day & night in this world? Think Fritzel...a mad man that constantly raped & molested a bunch of them he kept secretly in a cellar for YEARS! How did he get away with this so easily and for so long?
How did Hitler get away with mass ethnic cleansing, and even convinced perfectly normal people that killing Jews by mass murders was perfectly okay? HOW?
I'm not even going to mention the other religions of this world as they have a lot of fanatics (also reading this forum) and this could potentially endanger my own people just for voicing my opinion on their religious belief, so this is very potent stuff indeed, maybe best left alone if you ask me.
But there you have it, from me - to you - you DID ask.
